Man's ways lead to a hopeless end

God's ways lead to an endless hope

"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.
For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.
So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."

(2corinthians 5:16-18)

I know Lord, that YOu are renewing me, changing me, moulding me at this time of hardship and pain... i pray that i will be broken into pieces so that i may be beautified from the inside out...

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

so let me get down to the point,
honestly speaking, ive had such a tough week everything seemed to be a blur, everything didnt seem to interest me, i found no joy, no purpose and i found no peace within all that i have been involved in.

My relationship with God was going well (well thats what i thought anyway), i was doing QT everymorning, i was so attentive to what He had to say, i felt so secure in the arms of God.... but i forgot how to worship and i didnt realise that; yes doing all these 'holy, righteous' things were good BUT how deep was that relationship that i had with God? how healthy is your inner being??? 
i have to admit, ive been separating myself from all relationships;
with God i wasnt at rest, i wasnt happy at home and i never really talk much to my parents or sisters, i was 'too busy for a friend', and i was taking everyone for granted, trampling on their love and concerns for me......

But despite all this negativity, all this hurt and hardship... God's love overflowed in me, melted my frozen heart and broke me down these couple of nights.
as i came before my father, having nothing to give but all of my life back to Him.... i was renewed and cleansed from all my dirt and sins...

" And he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfectin weakness.'
therefore i will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christs power may rest on me." (2 Corinthians 12: 9)

I'll be truthful to you all, just because you are a Christian, it doesnt mean you are perfect and always living such a comfortable like... I admit (sorry to disappoint anyone) but i am weak, i am a sinner, i am soo dirty inside and out and i have alot of unnecessary baggage to carry... But Gods grace is sufficient and im not afraid to get back up and stand before Him to continue on this windy, narrow road to heaven... Because God is always with me, holding onto my hand and carrying me through this storm...
the question is... will you come with me, will you walk with God too???

My soul secure
Your promises sure
Your Love endures, always...